“Lorian, you openly threatened her. I thought that you planned to make her trust you.”
Nymre delicately pushed the bell that was hanging from the vast ceiling. The forest priests wanted to see Lorian once again , before their departure and Nymre couldn’t be less joyful about it. She doubted they would dare to again weave their lies and auguries about her in front of him. But the mere sight of their veiled faces was enough to cause her anxiety.
The bell rang, a pearly sound. The priests hanged them in the room of preparations, to secure the renewed reign. The bells were said to capture the shadows of dead gods, who still influenced the fae kind with their fierce energy.
Shadows of dead gods!
The only purpose of these bells was to calm the hearts of the court. Now, when Nymre knew what really was happening behind her back, these empty rites were stinging even more. No bell can stop her lover’s pain. No bell can hush the darkness that loomed over their lives.
“Such a thoughtful decoration” mused Lorian. “I see your fondness for its sound.”
“Nymre scoffed, almost aggressively.
“It’s the sound of lies. You know that I do not like ritualists.”
“Because they never tell us things that we want to hear?” Lorian raised the brow. “They are even more afraid that the court would be, if they knew. The gods drink from their souls, because they need fresh essence after I take it from them. They suffer and squirm. Anything they said to you, is irrelevant.”
Nymre’s lips formed a line. She didn’t want to sound like a whining human child. But Lorian surely knew already what the ritualist predicted… death… countless deaths and… her demise.
Lorian caught her in the waist, and whirled, to make her face him. She gasped, surprised by his rapid movement, but as soon as her tensed muscles allowed it, she deflated in his arms.
“It’s us, Lorian. It’s us, who they all need to fear. I don’t like being a prey. I don’t like being a food.”
He slowly reached her face and suddenly pushed his fingers under her mask. Her hand stopped his, trying to wipe it away.
“No… I…”
“I want to see your face, gleaming among these lights.”
“You want to see the scars? Before we perish?” her laughter was bitter.
He didn’t reply, but pulled the mask up… to reveal a round and pale face, untouched by sunlight. Her eyes, even bigger than with the material covering them up, her nose small, her skin shining with whitish gleam. And under her right eye… a mutilated flesh even his shadows couldn’t burn out. Because she was born with it, a rare spellbound marking, her price to pay. Such marks were unremovable, other than with her soul. In a society, where beauty was a power and a tool to make others raise or fall, where perfection was a mark of social status, this scar was something that would not allow her to really spread her wings. And Nymre was ambitious, Nymre liked strength and freedom. So she made a weapon from it – a mysterious raven, later – a cruel king’s consort, and a former spy, who knew everything, beautiful and filled with secrets.
Lorian slowly trailed the path over her scar, fingers caressing the skin.
“You are eternal. And no one will take you from me.”
She felt something she immediately hated. Weakness. Her own, ugly, low and pitiful weakness. She wanted to melt into him and allow him for everything he would want. And to kill him for making her feel weak. But it was so rare, this light shine on his face, this carefree, youthful – not cruel at all – smile. He looked like two hundreds years ago, when they were young and free, picking stars from the sky and sending the whole court on their knees.
When did it stopped to be enough?
“Fuck you, Lorian…”
He laughed in a way only he was able. Of course he knew and that was making it deliciously bittersweet.
The sound of bells tore them from each other, Nymre quickly putting on her mask, Lorian parting with her, but only slightly. She felt the heat of his body and shadows, just by her side.
Two forest priests, Nymre could sense the scent of old wood and smoldering leaves. Their steps were lighter, more supple than in the day of the solstice. Maybe being far from gods was giving them strength.
“Your Majesty, my Lady” a silent, whispering voice reached her ears. “I hope the Lunar New Year brought you a lot of pleasure.”
“I was pleased to the brim” Lorian graced them with a small smile.
“That’s good, my Lord! The New Year needs to be anointed with blood and passion.”
The two ritualists exchanged looks. Something bothered them, deeply, maybe even too deep. Maybe her presence suddenly became an obstacle for them, to share what they came with. Her lips curled in a smile. Discomfort of these creatures and being the reason for it – impeccable treat.
“Maybe your tongues need relief” Lorian looked at them blankly. “You searched me for a reason. It’s enough, truly, that you bothered me to come here, but I understand your secrecy.”
“We would never insult you, your Majesty. But only this place is secure enough to share the news. A raven came from the temple. Natsel’sorl… needs attention” he gazed at Nymre, with a doubtful air; but if Lorian brought her with him… she had to be trusted. “Even more than during… your last visit. They opened their eyes, first time in hundreds of years. And in them… fury of ages.”
Lorian’s expression couldn’t be more collected, and calm, but Nymre knew what this meant. Her heart jumped, like on a string.
The bells rang above their heads, giving sudden atonal sounds. The priest looked up, Nymre could see the apparition of his face, under the veil.
“We hoped the bells would soothe the court’s hearts. But all I feel from Dal’coler now is beautiful pain and decomposing lies.”
“If you think trinkets could soothe Dal’coler… you do not know my palace well, Sarianil” was an amused reply. The ritualist seemed to look, deep, into Lorian, but as always, just like her, could spot nothing. “Perhaps… it’s not something we truly want.”
His shadows were swallowing all spells, his aura so strong that it wasn’t even allowing typical fairy emotions detection.
“I admit my failure, your Majesty” Sarianil’s voice was tense now, displeased. Nymre wondered if they were so petty, or so foolish, but she came to the conclusion that it was another mask of theirs. They were decomposing alive, just like their whole temple.
And the sacred forest didn’t like it, with roots buried into the foundations of Natsel’sorl, breathing its dusty air.
“Let the blessing of the woods falls upon you and its branches form your crown. I implore you to visit us soon, your Majesty, though… and see it on your own eyes” Sarianil bow was deep and calculated. Lorian waved with his hand, dismissing them, and they reluctantly, slowly, departed, rustling with their robes.
Nymre exhaled the air, which she almost unconsciously held.
“Lorian…”
“I know. I am hoping Qhal knows what each day and each hour of prolonging means.. I can bear pain, but it will become even stronger, if they are awakening.”
“Why did you send Qhal? I know that he has gift of spring, but he also has enemies among Shadow Fairies… and not only among them. They could be killed so easily, just by vengeance” she knew the strange closeness Lorian had with his soath lyth warrior. She knew it obscured the normal bond of servant and his king. She never was jealous of this particular bond though – Qhal would enter the fire if Lorian ordered him. That was useful.
That was something Lorian could like more than anything else.
“Not only because of his spring. He can lie so beautifully” Lorian pushed the bell too, its delicate sound filled the air. “And pretend to be someone who isn’t, like a master of the skill. Because he is one. A master of lies. A champion of deception. He deserved polishing his talents… and a bit of enjoyment.”
“Lorian… he could die there and the boy too… is it worth it?”
“The naivety of this human feeds his power so well. Even without light, he could feed on him and never feel hunger. He drank my blood. He feels him even more.”
Nymre understood quite well what he meant. The boy was foolish and naive. For someone like Lorian and Qhal… he was a tempting prey.
“Why did you open so much before that girl?” she remembered the question with which conversation started. “Wouldn’t it be easier to continue the deception?”
“If you could look into her mind, my raven. She is the offspring of a very powerful witch. And this kind of humans is bound with our most dreadful enemies. The gods themselves. She senses you and me, she possibly even feels the scent of our magic. Dal’coler makes her skill bloom in her, faster than I would desire. She knows who we are. And in time, she would knew as well, that she wouldn’t leave this place alive.”
Nymre again formed a perfect line with her lips.
This didn’t look well, indeed. But Lorian risked a lot, making a deal with this witchling. If she wanted, she could force him to keep to his word, by mere law of promise. They all had so many weaknesses imposed by their creation. To not be equal to gods. Good that humans mostly didn’t know of them, aside of iron and rowan – and which could be easily meandered upon.
“But I know things, that even her kind is weak against” the dark gleam of black in his eyes, a cruel shine. “And she eventually… is only a toy, very stubborn, potentially very powerful… but so unaware of delightful pleasures that soon will await her.”
And Nymre couldn’t not smile.